I think I have written here before about how college involves so much change. It's been hard to adjust too.... but now I think while I still struggle with the emotions that come because of change I'm slightly addicted to it.
Lately I've been thinking about my role among my friends and peers... as a queen for a social club, among my roommates, in a group of rock climbers, as a student. I'm one of the old queens now and it feels weird to be on the outs. I'm not invited to hang out as much, the guys I'm really close to have dwindled because they have graduated, gotten girlfriends, or just aren't active. I'm not complaining, I know it's just how things go... but it's hard to let go of. My roommates are absolutely amazing, I love them all. All of them but one is graduated though and that one is graduating in May and then moving off to grad school. They are all either moving on to grad school in May or in search of something that will most likely lead them away from me. Once again, not complaining, I'm so excited for their new opportunities and that they are following the Lord's will for their lives. It's so hard to let them go though, I want them to stay here with me. I'll be a fifth year senior but I feel as though I'm graduating simply because of the amount of change. I haven't climbed in nearly 3 months. That's the longest I've gone since I was a freshman. This one I AM complaining about. ha I'm not completely sure why but the group of climbers has changed and while I love climbing simply for climbing I also was drawn so much to the community that I had there.
Anyway, enough explaining about all the change and on to some sort of point. Encountering
this change causes me to get scared sometimes. It's a very lonely feeling mixed with nostalgia. But then, it hits me, a lot like it did almost 4 years ago at the end of my freshman year when I wrote Adventures with my Lord and Savior, it's Jesus and I. The Lord is never changing and I'm on this adventure of life primarily with Him... and that is so fantastic. All the people in my life that I love so much are so important to me and I'm thankful for the opportunity to grow with them and fellowship with them and see Jesus in them. Ultimately though, people will come and go... and even those who stay around will fail me sometimes but the Lord has captivated me, I'm on this escapade with him and I am exhilarated by that. The memorable moments I've experienced the last four years I will always hold dear and even miss them ... I have this desire to sit here and tell you ALL about them because I love them that much. What gives me peace is there is more to come and even some better ones to come! How freaking exciting! :D This is where I get hooked. The change, just like the other struggles in life, bring me back to a sharp focus on the Lord and my purpose. His hope is an anchor for my soul. He is faithful. He loves. This life isn't about me or my happiness, it's about Him and as I keep along in that he takes care of any needs I have. Mercy tore the curtain. We walk the God Almighty and there is no other.
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