Realizations of a Nerd

So in high school school, I always thought that the girls who had all the guys adore them must really enjoy it. Maybe it's uber cliche, but I just thought that the popular girls had lots of fun? I don't know. haha Anyway, needless to say, I was not one of those girls. Frizzy hair to start out my high school career, but even once I got it under control I was busy doing well in school and learning more about what it really means to be a christian.

Now that I am in college, I have a few guys that follow me around. Not to say I have ton, maybe all the nerds like me just got bolder so now their voicing their feelings. haha Who knows. Now that I have a few young men interested though, I've come to a new conclusion: I don't like it and it's not fun. Why you ask? Because the majority of them end up hating me when I don't return their "love". Why can't we just be friends?!?! haha I know it's a tad silly but this is me venting over just wanting to be friends with the few boys who want more.

Alright, now that I've broken the long silence of no blogging with my mellow dramatic problem... maybe sometime soon I can come and blog about something meaningful.

peace.

How To Be Alone

Parting ways with artwork

I just gave away a piece of artwork I did in high school that I am quite attached to. It's ok though. I offered it up. I'm teaching myself a new lesson. There are better things to come. I have to stay focused on what is ahead. What I have done is great and represents milestones. This particular piece won't be able to be shown in my senior art show when I graduate college (for multiple reasons). I am a much better artist now than I was then, I am capable of a good deal more.

Art is meant to be enjoyed. Loved. Critiqued. That doesn't happen when it is sitting in my closet. The friend I gave it to, I know will respect it and show it off. She may even love it more than I do. It's all for the better. :)

The Weepies :)

Something I need to hear

Breathe.
Slow down.
Trust.
Don't rush.
Patience.
Let go.
Adventure.
Love.
Life.

He loves me and He's in control. All that matters is Him... despite what others do or say. I was made for relationship, relationship with the El Shaddai. Don't be afraid to let him be your all, there is nothing better.



"She is the crescendo, the final astonishing work of God. Woman. In one least flourish creation comes to a finish not with Adam, but with Eve. She is the Master’s finishing touch… His piece de resistance. She fills a place in the world nothing and no one else can fill… (Ladies) Look out across the earth and say to yourselves, “The whole, vast world is incomplete without me. Creation reached its zenith in me.”

And she, too, bears the image of God but in a way that only the feminine can speak. What can we learn from her? God wanted to reveal something about Himself, so he gave us Eve… Eve is created because things were not right without her. Something was not good. …Something is missing? What could it possibly be? Eve. Woman. Femininity. Wow. Talk about significance."
- from Captivating by John and Stasi Eldridge

To know me you would have to know...

Had to write this for my bible class. Thought I would share. :)

To know me you would have to know…
That I am too complicated for 250 words, but I don’t think that is an unusual thing for women. I am always changing. While there are some characteristics that will forever be me, there are others that come and go. Learning, growing, and thinking… being static is not an option.
I consider myself a deep thinker. I long for the day when my redeemed soul will discover that at last she has pleased him whom she was created to please. I love the Lord with all my heart and believe that Jesus is the Christ the son of the living God. I am nowhere near perfect but am a perfectionist in many areas of my life. A complicated mess, yes, but I am El Shaddai’s beautiful complicated mess. I desire adventure and yearn to make a difference. Rock climbing is my sport. I am the oldest of three girls. My parents have been married 23 years. I am a double major in Middle School Math and Science Education and Art. Other than the essential next step plans, I try to avoid getting too set on an “order of operations” for my life. I want God’s will for my life and nothing less, it is hard to do that when attempting to tell God when marriage should be, along with where and what I “should” be doing.
My freshman year of college was one of the most challenging years of my young life. I had always assumed that in college, school itself would be hard but making friends would be easy. For me, it was the opposite. I felt out of place and different. When first looking back on that year I had a moment of heartbreak because it seemed at first glance like a complete waste. Even though I was extremely lonely and I would never want to go through it again, I would never want to undo it. I learned so much and grew closer and closer to Jesus. However, from there on out I decided that, for me, living life to the fullest would have a new meaning. There are people to meet, mountains to climb, and adventures to have with my Lord and Savior.

We, The Adulterous People

I love coffee. :)



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Siblings fight. (especially me and mine)
But we make up.
We come back to the fact that we love each other.

Christian brothers and sisters fight.
But we don't always make up.
In history we even go to war with each other.
We do it today in the church.

Real wisdom brings about peace.

I have often wondered, that persons who make a boast of professing the Christian religion, namely, love, joy, peace, temperance, and charity to all men, should quarrel with such rancorous animosity, and display daily towards one another such bitter hatred, that this, rather than the virtues they claim, is the readiest criterion of their faith.

~Benedict de Spinoza

Churches.
Denominations.
Cliches.
Social Clubs.
Politics.

What does it for you?
What causes the friction for you?
What do you get angry about?

James 4:1-12

Is it really others or is it us?

Selfishness.

Inspired by Ben Stuart's sermon "You Adulterous People"


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Photo By Olena Legeyda
















Photo By Christina White
"A conceptual image showing what is happening to the world, and the future generation of teenagers and kids in terms of electronics and media."












Taken by yours truly at a tea party