Sunday, January 30, 2011

"The most beautiful colors chase the sun"

I found a new (well, new to me) band that I like. :)

I'm reading "I Kissed Dating Goodbye" by Joshua Harris. I've owned it for at least 3 years, but had thought of it has a "high school" book... I guess. ha Turns out I shouldn't be so prideful cause Mr. Harris has lots of awesome things to say. I've heard there is a sequel... and I'll definitely be looking into it. Soooo, don't judge it by it's title and go read it. ;)

I went to the Boxamania ASWF wrestling function yesterday. I was expecting it to be fun, but I enjoyed it way more than I expected. haha It was hilarious, not to mention lots of super awesome people were there.

I've been in a really weird mood today. Just kinda of nonchalant. I am craving sour patch kids though.


Have a good week!

Thursday, January 27, 2011

Pretty Lights and Knitting

I love college. Cliche phrase, I know, but it's oh so true. Life is great right now. I'm growing in the Lord. I love my classes. I have great friends who I absolutely love spending time with. More time for rock climbing would be good, but I can't complain.

I'm trying to learn to not let my stresses get the best of me. Just one day at a time. :) It always works out in the end so why do I let the worries in life depress me?

I was watching rock climbing videos while working the dorm desk the other day and came across this pretty cool one that had some good music too. In the end credits I saw a website for the music called Pretty Lights. Turns out its all free to download and there was some decent stuff in there. Yay for free music!

I've also started the wonderful art of knitting. ;) My grandma taught me when I was little but I wasn't very good and gave up quickly. Over break I had her teach me again and now I've made 3 scarfs! ha ;) Maybe I'll get some pictures up soon.

Saturday, January 15, 2011

"There she goes again"

Alright, I know, I like to get up on my soap box. I have lots of opinions. I'm also outspoken about them. That often gets me in trouble. At times it's something I don't like about myself and at other times I consider it a gift. It has to come out somehow. I know a large part of my problem is the presentation, because most people get annoyed with my "preaching" and give me that look. Anyway, here I go again.

Judgement of Teachers
James 3:1
NIV "Not many of you should presume to be teachers, my brothers, because you know that we who teach will judged more strictly."
ESV "Not many of you should become teachers, my brothers, for you know that we who teach will be judged with greater strictness"
The Message "1-2Don't be in any rush to become a teacher, my friends. Teaching is highly responsible work. Teachers are held to the strictest standards. And none of us is perfectly qualified. We get it wrong nearly every time we open our mouths. If you could find someone whose speech was perfectly true, you'd have a perfect person, in perfect control of life."

If we consider ourselves "higher" we will be judged accordingly. How come we teach and lead Bible studies but then go home to spend hours watching tv, arguing with family members, and starring at facebook. Not only will the Lord hold us to higher standard but Satan is after those who teach. He doesn't want teachers to have the Godly impact and growth in the church that they are capable of. Teachers must be on guard and preparing themselves! With greater spiritual maturity comes greater spiritual warfare.

Meekness
James 4:6
NLT "But he gives us even more grace to stand against such evil desires. As the Scriptures say, “God opposes the proud but favors the humble.”"

Matthew 5:5
NAS "Blessed are the gentle, for they shall inherit the earth."
NIV "Blessed are the meek, for they will inherit the earth."

To gain meekness we must pursue it. Meaning a mind set to find meekness, valuing it's importance and striving to achieve it. To be humble goes against our nature, in it we are giving honor, benefit, and privilege to others. Others who often are less committed than yourself. But it doesn't matter. Just avoiding conflict or holding your tongue does NOT mean you have walked in meekness but it is a start. Praying for the Lord to humble us is hard thing to do and actually want sometimes but wouldn't we rather be shown now how prideful we are rather than when we are standing in front of the Lord on that day when he returns? Here is what really gets me... It is IMPOSSIBLE to have meekness in the world and not have meekness in your family. If I can not be humble with those I love and live with, how can be humble towards those in the world?

Simplicity
1 Timothy 6:7-8
ESV "for we brought nothing into the world, and we cannot take anything out of the world. But if we have food and clothing, with these we will be content."
The Message "6-8A devout life does bring wealth, but it's the rich simplicity of being yourself before God. Since we entered the world penniless and will leave it penniless, if we have bread on the table and shoes on our feet, that's enough."

To receive what we have as a gift from God. We must come to understand that even though we work, we live by the grace of God alone. He is the supplier of all that we have. We have to remember not to cling to and fear the loss of possessions, because we know that God will provide what we need. I would HIGHLY recommend the book Celebration of Discipline, the whole book is great but I especially loved the chapters on meditating and simplicity. He talks about how MUCH we have and how LITTLE we really need. We talk quite a bit about the importance of giving... and giving is important, but how often do we talk about how riches can distract us from focusing on the Lord. We need to walk away from or get rid of anything that distracts us from seeking first the Kingdom of God. This is ultimately where the heart of true simplicity lives.

Thursday, December 16, 2010

30 by 30

I think the most important thing I’ve continued to realize this semester is how much I have to learn. I’ve also gotten a new perspective on my pride and how I need to fix it. Reading through the Gospels and being reminded of how perfect Jesus is also opens my eyes to the fact that no one is good, not even one. I am no better than anyone else. I think this is something that is especially hard for us who have grown up in a materialistic culture to deal with because the culture is “all about me” focused.
At first I thought it was silly to say I was finding myself. I felt like that was such a teenager stage to be in. It has really become evident to me this semester that we are definitely working on finding ourselves, all of us. College students are known for having outlandish dreams. I love it. Everywhere I go on campus I hear people talking about big ideas and goals they have in life.
The sad thing is, a lot of our elders say it’s just a phase. I can’t count how many times I’ve talked about some big dream I have and gotten some crazy a look from someone older than myself. So what is possible and a reality… and what is just a phase I’m going through? What will I choose to chase after and make a reality? And most importantly, will it be for the Lord?

In this all about me culture, it also affects our goals. I recently started a 30 by 30 list (30 things to do by the time I am 30 years old). The first thing that went on it was to rock climb “The Nose” on El Cap in Yosemite. The Nose is a 2,400 ft climb that takes an average of 4 days (2 nights sleeping on the side of cliff) and lots of experience. The next thought that ran through my head was this, “Do I want to achieve this for me? Or is it for Lord?” If my motives are just so I can say I did it, I am doing it for the wrong reasons. If I want to tackle this feat so that I can impact people along the way and become closer to Jesus through the journey, then let’s start buying gear. Everything I do in life should be for El Shaddai. I should be pouring Him into my relationships on earth and loving on people as He works through me. I am ready to dream big and allow the Lord to penetrate every part of it.

Thursday, December 2, 2010

Learning to be Joyful


In a place like America we have so much stuff. Material things flood our daily lives and are on our minds. We've made this mistake of trying to be joyful with what we see have in this earthly kingdom. Nothing will truly bring us joy and celebration but the Lord and I know it sounds a bit odd... but obedience to him will bring us abundant reason to celebrate!

Depression is the epidemic here. And I can't help but think that it is because we are selfish and/or trying to fill our voids with education, earthly relationships, sports, and material possessions. We say we're christians... but then act like the world. We even view celebration in the same light at times. "The carefree spirit of joyous festivity is absent in contemporary society. Apathy, even melancholy, dominates the times."

"Joy is found in obedience." I thought it sounded odd when I first heard it too. I've been reading Celebrations of Discipline for my Bible class and the last chapter/discipline is celebration and it mentions this idea of joy and reason for celebration being found in obedience. While it didn't make sense to me at first, it's starting to now. If we would listen and obey the Lord and his will for our lives, we will have overflowing joy. His will is perfect and by obeying him we will be blessed and have reason for life.

"Often we try to pump up people with joy when in reality nothing has happened in their lives. God has not broken into the routine experiences of their daily existence. Celebration comes when the common ventures of life are redeemed."


I have quite a few friends right now who are unmotivated, depressed, and searching for joy. I'm struggling with having patience with them, I want to shake them and tell them how blessed they are and if they'd only focus on the Lord their cup would overflow. What is crazy about that is I was just there last year. I was not joyful my freshman year of college. I allowed the struggles of a changing life get me down. I know what it is like so I should be able to have patience because I can relate, right? I don't know what it is. Perhaps I need to knock down some walls of pride.

Let's learn to celebrate together. :) I think it will take some a community effort.

Friday, November 26, 2010

Realizations of a Nerd

So in high school school, I always thought that the girls who had all the guys adore them must really enjoy it. Maybe it's uber cliche, but I just thought that the popular girls had lots of fun? I don't know. haha Anyway, needless to say, I was not one of those girls. Frizzy hair to start out my high school career, but even once I got it under control I was busy doing well in school and learning more about what it really means to be a christian.

Now that I am in college, I have a few guys that follow me around. Not to say I have ton, maybe all the nerds like me just got bolder so now their voicing their feelings. haha Who knows. Now that I have a few young men interested though, I've come to a new conclusion: I don't like it and it's not fun. Why you ask? Because the majority of them end up hating me when I don't return their "love". Why can't we just be friends?!?! haha I know it's a tad silly but this is me venting over just wanting to be friends with the few boys who want more.

Alright, now that I've broken the long silence of no blogging with my mellow dramatic problem... maybe sometime soon I can come and blog about something meaningful.

peace.

Monday, November 8, 2010