Freedom

I've had this overwhelming feeling of freedom and peace lately. Not to say that certain stresses I've been dealing with lately like money and family issues have gone away. I just feel better about the idea of those things not working out anytime soon. It is all about perspective. My whole world could come crashing down and it would be ok because I have a relationship with the Lord of Lords. This is where my entry starts to sound corny because there are no words to express His glory and the utter importance of the relationship involving Him. Nothing else matters. I could end up not having enough money to go study abroad in Italy and He'll still be my Abba and will have great plans for me despite. My family may never get along or understand me, but He understands me completely. I may end up deserted in every romantic relationship... but the greatest lover of my soul will forever pursue me. Each day is another day to relish in his unfailing love and an opportunity to declare his splendor.

"If we were as concerned with our spiritual condition as we are with our homes and our businesses and our income; we would go forward spiritually at a great rate." - A.W. Tozer

"Whom have I in heaven but you?
I desire you more than anything on earth.
My health may fail, and my spirit may grow weak,
but God remains the strength of my heart;
he is mine forever."
-Psalm 73:25-26



I've been a bit restless lately; annoyed with the requirement of work and the binding power money can have. I just want to have adventure. I'd rather pack up all my stuff and rough for a whole summer and get to rock climb all over the country. Unfortunately, that's not how it works out. The Lord has given me peace here too though. While I still desire to do that, I also know that the greatest adventure is that relationship with Him and the challenge of helping others to find that relationship themselves. He created those mountains and I know he wants me to experience them, but they are not what is most important. Patience. All good things come to those who are patient.

"1 Come, let us sing for joy to the LORD;
let us shout aloud to the Rock of our salvation.
2 Let us come before him with thanksgiving
and extol him with music and song.
3 For the LORD is the great God,
the great King above all gods.
4 In his hand are the depths of the earth,
and the mountain peaks belong to him.
5 The sea is his, for he made it,
and his hands formed the dry land.

6 Come, let us bow down in worship,
let us kneel before the LORD our Maker;
7 for he is our God
and we are the people of his pasture,
the flock under his care.

Today, if only you would hear his voice,"
- Psalm 95:1-7 NIV



Update on 6/22
This entry became even more real today. All I need is You, Lord. And I wish others could see that all they need is the same. When my heart aches... He's there to hold me. It'll all be alright. Faith. He doesn't promises me no pain, but he does promise a happy ending. And hopefully some stinkin awesome moments before then.