ugh...a major

First off, let me tell you that I am one that likes to have a plan. I like to know what I'm doing, where I'm going, ect. So to not know my major... tends to make me uptight from time to time. Not only do I not know what major I'd like to study but I'm also ALL OVER THE BOARD. Seriously... everywhere. haha So I thought I'd walk through the possibilities. Here we go:

Middle School Education: Right now this is the one I'm leaning towards the most (note that it changes every month or so). My first draw back about this one is it seems like EVERYONE is an education major. Will I seriously have a job when I'm out of school? I feel like so many use this major as a fall back plan or just choose it cause it sounds easy (summers off!). But I'm definitely not like that. Of course I love kids so that is a plus. I'd like to teach 5th grade, I know, crazy. But the reason is 5th grade is an intense year! My whole purpose for becoming a teacher is because I want to make an impact, and 5th grade is gonna be one of the best years to do that. I mean, think about it, 5th grade is when puberty starts... well for most. You start to like guys/girls, whatever. I know for me it was when I realized that not everyone else's life is like mine. "Divorce? What's that?" Before 5th grade most make A's and B's but when this year comes the long division hits and the division between who's going to be a good student and who isn't starts to form. It's just an intense year that I think I would love to be apart of.

Civil Engineering: I don't even know why I consider this a choice anymore. It was my number one pick all through senior year of high school. But sense I've had to start out in College Algebra instead of Calculus this year I'm already behind. I'm a good student and I'll even dare to call myself smart, but I have to work for it. It doesn't come easy. When I think of all the engineering majors I think of the people who had school easy through High School. Any engineering major has an insane amount of hours... so, yes I'm scared out of my mind. I love solving problems though. I do have an A in College Algebra. I really feel like I could use this career in the mission field (yeah, I'd also like to a "part time" missionary... but I figured that could tag along with any career I decide). But I've also ALWAYS wanted to have kids. I knew that since I was young and this kind of career doesn't easily allow for that.

Marketing: This would be my current major, even though all my classes are general ed. For 2 years in High School I was in this club called DECA (distributive education clubs of america aka marketing club) The first year I was in a individual division of business services. I went to state that year, but the trip ended there. My second year I was in a team division of travel and tourism marketing with my best friend. We rocked and made it all the way to Internationals. I'm pretty creative and like I said before I enjoy problem solving, but I just don't know if I wanna deal with modern marketing techniques. "Sex Sells" Yes, I suppose I could market kids cereal and wouldn't have to deal with that... but that doesn't sound like what I want to do with the rest of life. I think the main problem with this major is that it's broad and I'm sure what I'd want to do with it career wise when I was done.

Marriage and Family Therapist/Counseling: The reasons this is appealing is a lot of the same reasons I'd like to being a teacher. I want to help people, I want to make a difference, especially for my God. There is a program here at school called the MFT program (Marriage and Family therapy), it's a two year program of full classes (including summers) that you take after you have your undergrad. Once done with the program you have so many hours of supervised counseling (aka working for someone else) and then you are free to even open up your own counseling center. Another appealing thing about this, is that it doesn't matter what your undergrad is. None of those intense psychology degrees. I could even do a 3 year general ed. degree in something awesome like....ART! And then do this and have a masters degree after 5 years. :D The only scary thing about that is if i get very far into my general ed. study and decided I don't wanna do the MFT program I'm stuck with a General Art Degree that will get me NO WHERE. I suppose there's the possibility of doing this program after any of the above majors... but I'm poor and don't really wanna be in debt for the rest of my life.

The OTHERs: I'm also open to the fact that the major God had planned for me could be nothing that I've even thought of yet.

When I present this problem to friends and family I usually get the just pray reply. I know prayer is powerful. I have prayed about it, and I feel like I've gotten mixed signals. Maybe God's trying to teach me that patience I'm always asking for or teaching me to rely on Him despite not knowing what lies ahead. So God, when you do decide to fill me in... could you make it a big flashing neon sign so I don't miss it?